Thomas

Brian killed himself. No matter what anyone says that’s what happened. I wish that we could have convinced James of that though. He was the one that found him; he came home one day and found his car, running in the garage. James blamed himself for it happening. I don't know why he shouldered it all, five of us were living in that house, and none of us had a clue as to just how depressed Brian was. He kept it all inside, Brian was hard to read to begin with but he was always around laughing and smiling with the rest of us, never letting on. Maybe that’s why James took it so hard; he could always relate to everyone, he made it a goal in life to be the guy who everyone could rely on, the guy to whom they could go to any day of the week and just unload. But not Brian, James tried but Brian just kept on shirking it, he kept on avoiding him till James just gave up. It changed him, from then on James was a little different when Brian came around. It was almost as if he knew what Brian was planning and there was nothing that anyone could do to stop it; it just didn't hit James till he came home that day. He spoke at Brian’s wake, it was beautiful and from the heart, just like James.